So this is my first post and I'm pretty excited. The main purpose of this blog is for me to vent and I've got a lot to vent about so if anyone is reading this, which is highly unlikely, sit tight and let me share the world through my eyes.
I'm starting with my latest experience; which is me working as an assistant at my school. I've only been there for one semester but I've already learned many things. I've had my ups and my downs during my stay at the office assigned to me and I really did enjoy working there but I've had difficulty dealing with my boss' attitude, and boy was there a lot of attitude. Not to say that she wasn't nice, she was and she had her moments when I felt so much respect and admiration for her, but she favored the distance-yourself-from-the-people-working-under-you approach and this resulted in so many conflicting feelings for me.
One minute she smiles and cracks a joke and the next she's screaming at me for something I haven't done. So yes, very conflicting.
I know that there are way more horrible bosses out there and even way more horrible people that I will eventually encounter but for now, with school and work colliding, I'm too exhausted to cope with what she's throwing.
I've decided to quit and try to find other alternatives to pay for college because you know what? What I'm doing isn't running away, it's letting go. Letting go of all the baggage and pain that have accumulated throughout the months. It's not running away if what you're doing is the best choice for yourself and you know you're better off choosing this. Running away is when you can face the problem and fix it but choose to ignore it instead, that's running away. Letting go is when it's all too much for you and this is when it's okay to give up. Giving up is not always for cowards, so is letting go.
This all just means that I chose what's best for me and in the harshness of life; I live to fight another day. Because at the end of the day, we are responsible for our own selves and what we make of our lives is solely based on us, and if letting go is what's best then it's fine to let go.